My First Blog

I've never blogged before, it's a little exhilarating making my thoughts known to the public. Mind you, alot of them are not always something you would agree with but they are my thoughts and I can think what I want.
Have you ever been in a position where you have no idea where to go next? Like you can't think of anything to do with your time or if you just aren't interested in any of the things you could be doing at the moment? I have, I've been in that position alot and usually I find myself deciding that the best thing to do is either to call a friend or just get on youtube. But this doesn't make it go away because it always comes back and you do the same things again and again until you aren't interested in doing them either. I feel like I'm ranting kinda funny because right now I'm just imagining talking to a shadow and that there could be hundreds of people within it.
I'm always thinking why am I the way I am, always having the bad things that happen to me happen and how nobody else could be going through the same thing. The astounding truth of that? People are going through worse all over the world, and I just think what happened to me was bad I bet one of those people would pay a million dollars to be me at that point.